Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Phase II


Another Birthday has come and gone. I can't believe I'm a grown ass woman, still feel and act like a kid which is good they say the secrect to life is to stay young at heart. Mind you my friends aunt just passed away at 107 and her secret was to keep living, so between the two I should come out in top. I'm adjusting well to Atlanta and the whole southern way of life, it is alot slower and alot more friendly down here than other places, although if you drive 50 miles in any direction outside metro Atlanta you would swear you went back in time to the 1950's, I still can't get used to the open display of the conferderate flag mind you probably never will. I do miss California though, I would kill for the following:
Jamba Juice (Orange Dream Machine),Baja Fresh, a Panini from Safeway,an Its Its, and a Burrito from the bomb ass burrito spot on 3rd in Frisco, either and In and Out or Nations burger,oh and I can't forget Fridays with Simon Gilligham my four legged friend. If anyone can facilitate I would be greatly in debt to.
I would say I'm in phase II of my life, I'm 30 something, back in the dating world, getting more comfortable in my skin and really getting to know me, It's been an interesting ride. The rules of dating have changed a whole lot, I don't understand where men have been given this power to act like they are doing us a favor by taking us out (or maybe it's just the ones I seem to go out with), or that we need to adjust our lives to fit theres. Ladies we need to stop going out of our way for these men, stop auditioning for them and make them show us something!! I swear I am already prepared to start collecting cats in lew of men, or we could do like the Amazons and use them solely for breeding purposes only and then cage them back up when we are done, they'd really appreciate us then!! I am really having a hard time finding someone I really click with that isn't expecting me to walk on broken glass just to sit on thier couch and watch tv. The wierd thing is if I am mean to men they love it if I am kind they seem to take it as weakness, I don't know but being solo seems to be the best answer. Gentlemen, us ladies are not that hard to keep happy and remember the happier we are the happier you are, it's not rocket science.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

What happened to Passion??

I've been thinking about passion lately, not just romantic or sexual but all passion in general. Passion for love, Passion for life, Passion for others, Passion for Ourselves, when did that go? When we are children that is all we have, we are passionate about what is new, every experience encompasses excitement. We loved our parents unconditionally, going out to play was mind blowing, we knew we'd see the neighborhood kids out in the front and at that point we felt so passionate about the idea of being out there. Even the schoolyard arguments were passion driven. When did we loose this? I can remember as a child I wanted to be either an actress or a lawyer from the age of 5 to 15 or so that was my passion, now at 31, I'm having to find that passion again to find out what really makes my soul feel good. I've been trying to think back to when I lost it, I don't even remember, as a matter of fact I don't even remember what that passion felt like. I really wish I could just let go and really feel like that again, and allow it to flow into all aspects of my life, from work to love to my interaction with my friends. We've become so fixated on all of the things that are wrong, we don't even notice what is right. Is it our parents who tell us, "You can't be an actress that's not going to put food on the table". Is it part of our personality? Is it something learned from our environment? Or is it that we as human beings love to have things to complain about so we make our lives a burden rather than a gift. For those of us who have lost our passion, how do we get it back? Is it a matter of reaquainting ourselves with ourselves, making the decision that instead of pointing out what is wrong with us we will point out what is right? How freeing it must be to be able to look at and love ourselves with Passion, if one can look at themselves in this way wouldn't it change how we operated in life? How we valued our lives and the lives of others? There is a saying I came across that really sparked this thought (it may not be an exact quote, but you get the picture): 'Love like you have never been hurt, and dance like there is no one in the room'

How Do You Find Your Passion Again??

Saturday, October 29, 2005

I'M BACK !


I realize it's coming up on a year since I last posted, sooo much has happened. I'm in the process of a divorce (Yeah!!), drove across the country with my best friend, moved to Atlanta, GA (Interesting Place), going back to school (A mind is a terrible thing to waste), my step-mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and is now cancer free (Give thanks), and I'm developing my own clothing line, (well just t-shirts for now but who knows!) 2004/2005 has certainly been a very emotional period for me and I hate to say it but I'm ready to welcome 2006, my outlook for this coming year is a whole lot brighter, although I said 2005 was my year. I guess it some way it was, one of the things I will definitely suggest to all those whose eyes may pass this blog, read the book ' The Power of Now' by Eckert Tolle, it will change how you look at your life. We spend too much time worrying about what happened in the past and what we are going to do in the future that we miss what is happening right now. That is how you really get the best out of life, enjoy what is going on right now. GET THE BOOK!

Hey Lady Candyass Sharkbite (aka 'Lead Belly'), check out your 9/29/04 blog entry when you miss me! I had looked back to the pics of Simon when he was still a baby (awww !!) My little boy is growing up! sniff, sniff. Can't wait to see the new addition, I guess your cat to room ratio is still under the limit!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

THE WORST/ DUMBEST PRESIDENT EVER

CAN THE LEADER OF THE "FREE WORLD" REALLY BE THIS STUPID?

APPARENTLY SO.

BET.com Staff

Posted Feb. 16, 2005 -- Last week, at a forum in Tampa, Fla., a woman asked President George Bush how allowing citizens to set up private accounts would keep Social Security out of the red.
Following is the president's response -- verbatim.


"Because the -- all which is on the table begins to address the big cost drivers. For example, how benefits are calculate, for example, is on the table; whether or not benefits rise based upon wage increases or price increases. There's a series of parts of the formula that are being considered. And when you couple that, those different cost drivers, affecting those -- changing those with personal accounts, the idea is to get what has been promised more likely to be -- or closer delivered to what has been promised.
Does that make any sense to you? It's kind of muddled. Look, there's a series of things that cause the -- like, for example, benefits are calculated based upon the increase of wages, as opposed to the increase of prices. Some have suggested that we calculate -- the benefits will rise based upon inflation, as opposed to wage increases. There is a reform that would help solve the red if that were put into effect. In other words, how fast benefits grow, how fast the promised benefits grow, if those -- if that growth is affected, it will help on the red."

Huh?

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

NAPOLEON DYNAMITE

I KNOW I' LATE BUT I JUST SAW THE MOVIE THE OTHER DAY....LOVED IT!!!! MY FRIEND AT WORK GAVE ME THIS LINK FOR ALL THE DIE HARDS OUT THERE!

http://www.collegehumor.com/news/2005-01-20.napoleon.php

AND YES I'M JEALOUS SHE GOT TO WATCH IT WITH COMMENTARY!!

Friday, February 11, 2005

DREAM ANALYSIS

I HOPE THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO ANALYZE DREAMS THAT MAY COME ACROSS THIS, I HAD THREE REALLY STRANGE DREAMS LAST NIGHT THAT I AM REALLY CURIOUS ABOUT...

1) WAS AT SOME KIND OF AWARDS / CONCERT SHOW AND WAS WATCHING GINUWINE AND HIS RAPPER WIFE SOLE SING TO ALL THE GIRLS I'VE LOVED BEFORE IN A SONNY & CHER TYPE SHOW. THEY WERE BOTH DRESSED IN SHINY BLUEISH SILVEISH LAME OUTFITS, GINUWINE WAS ON THE STAGE FIRST AND SOLE MADE HER ENTRANCE DOWN A LONG FLIGHT OF STEEP STAIRS, NEEDLESS TO SAY SHE FELL DOWN THE STAIRS AND WAS KNOCKED OUT. ALL OF A SUDDEN THE AUDIENCE YELLED OUT "YOU GOT KNOCKED THE FUCK OUT!!" JUST LIKE SMOKEY IN FRIDAY. THEN I WENT INTO DREAM @2.

2) I WAS SITTING AT HOME WATCHING PORN (WHICH I DON'T DO, I FIND IT GROSS) AND THE TWO PEOPLE INVOLVED WERE SOME GUY AND ONE OF MY CO-WORKERS. ANYWAYS I REMEMBER THINKING WHY IS SHE ON THE PORN? SO I GOT UP TO GO TO ANOTHER ROOM, OPEND THE DOOR AND THE MOVIE BECAME REAL AND THE GUY AND MY CO-WORKER WERE IN MY LIVING ROOM STILL DOING THIER THING. MY CO-WORKER LOOKS UP AND SAYS "I'LL JUST BE A MINUTE." MY RESPONSE IS "OKAY" AND I WALK INTO ANOTHER ROOM. ABOUT 5 MINUTES LATER SHE COMES IN FULLY DRESSED IN WORK CLOTHES AND SAYS "OKAY I'M GOING TO GO CATCH THE BUS TO WORK I'LL SEE YOU AT THE OFFICE." AND REALLY WALKED OUT TO THE BUS STOP.

NOW MY CO-WORKER IS A MOTHER OF TWO TEENS, GOES TO CHURCH NOT EXACTLY A PORN POSTER CHILD. WHEN I TOLD HER THIS MORNING AT WORK SHE THOUGHT IT WAS HILARIOUS. I CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW I CONNECTED HER AND PORN.......WIERD.

SO IF ANYONE COMES ACROSS THIS AND ANALYZES DREAMS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMENT.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

SURPRISED...NOT REALLY

Are we really surprized by this? Didn't investigators tell the Oompaloompa oops, I mean, Bush that they could not find any evidence of WMD's before the war started? Didn't the "Wee Man" say he didn't care what they said he's going in anyway? So, why even admit to what the rest of the world already knows, this war is a fucking joke, thousands of innocent people have died on both sides, families ruined, lives ruined, very Vietnam-ish. I always wonder how this man can claim to be a Christian, and sanction war? I don't get it.

Check it Out!

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/4169107.stm